Live In Loneliness

Afresh

2011-10-26T11:16:00.003+08:00

It's been 3 months since my last post. So much things to say! Too much things have happened. Firstly i hate my class alot. Just not in the class mood at all. Being in tat class totally just suck. Maybe it's just me. Feeling freaking down in my life since sec 3 started. Wonder how bad would sec 4 go when it begin. Got a new job at manhattan. Hope it goes well. Being alone just totally suck but i dont have anyway out. Who the f would bother about my life. Everyone has their own problem. I have gave up on friends...

down down down

2011-07-10T01:22:00.002+08:00

Why am i having the feeling of tiredness suddenly? tired of everything. my mind just seem to wonder off to a blank space. It's like i wan to think of something but i just dont know wad i should be thinking of. My mind just dont seem to be mine anymore. It's a feeing of wanting something so much but i dont know wad is the thing i wanted. Feel sooooooooo weird. tired? or cant be bothered? or just plain weird feeling all of a sudden? I cant seems to control wad i'm thinking about.

the right one?

2011-06-27T22:15:00.002+08:00

When will i ever find the right one? never? How can such an imperfect person like me find someone who truely love me? Is singapore too of a realistic country for me? I cant find any reason able to live here. The sense of loneliness just kept coming to me. Past two relationship were such failures...I wonder why did i have to lie to myself tat they dont love me at all. History just kept repeating. I really tired of all this bullshyt. Why cant i just give myself a break? Isit really tat difficult to have peace? Wake up Sky...pls WAKE UP! Stop dreaming of anything tat you know wont ever come true. no matter how hard you try all you get are failures and disappointments. Stop hurting urself and others for goodness sake. I'm such a pathetic person....

Fall

2011-05-09T01:19:00.003+08:00

Time after time. i fall and i fall. history of the same thing will happen again and again. why am i like this? maybe i just fall too easily. i fail in everything. love, life, family, work, skol, myself. it just goes on and on and on and on and on.........when will it end?...why did i have to start it in the first place. my life....the reality......how am i going to live?... breathe hard......

It just crash...

2011-05-06T23:48:00.002+08:00

When i know there was hope, things just does'nt go the way i wan it to be. All my hope dashed. My tears wont help. Nobody knows. No one cares. All i can do is just act as if i am getting along all the time. It works, yet it hurts so much. I cant say i'm suffering cos i know thr's ppl who are far worst situation thn me. Yet, i cant say i'm happy cos i'm not. But this is just reality. Suffer is the only thing your living for. To dad: I love you for caring , thinking for me. I'm just not up to your expectation. Maybe i suck at being good, but why could'nt you understand how hard it would be for me? All i work so hard for is for myself, it meant good. I could just comfort myself and tell myself i can do this, even if i cant i still have to. All i could do is just to breathe hard and carry on and hope one day all this would be over.

family

2011-04-16T18:21:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i just hate you all alot. Maybe is just i brought this upon myself. But have you all thought how lonely a person alone can be at home? I feel so extra sometimes. Do you all feel so good without me thr. If it's like tat thn just fuck off from my life. Stop acting as if you all understand everything. It's all my fault. You all are very good. I'm the only bad person. _l_

Terrible mistake

2011-01-03T20:48:00.002+08:00

I have made a serious mistake in my life. How can i do such a thing? i have nvr been so fearful in my entire life. How can i be so stupid?!! I should'nt have done it in the first place. I'm so regretful this time. Whr has my humanity gone to? The way of how to live. How can forget the ppl who have so much hope in me?!! I disappointed them so much. I cant forgive myself for this!

coming of 2011

2010-12-30T00:25:00.003+08:00

Time is fast thn i ever could imagine. Arrival of new year, new studies, new events. I'm not ready. Not ready for everything. Not ready to be myself... Nothing could stop this terrifying thing call time. All i could do is just to go along. Let's just hope everything would not get worse when skol starts. Finally, "you" have come into my life. But yet why do i have this feeling of not sure in between us. Maybe i just nid more confidence to believe in "you". Thr's so much things to think about in 2011!!

back

2010-09-19T00:46:00.003+08:00

back to my half dead blog. busy with EOY recently so din really have the time to blog.

For the pass few weeks...i thought i could get over you but everytime we would see each other. i dare not do anything , all i could do is just walk pass and pretend nothing has happened. Everytime i told myself i would'nt wan to see you. But i could imagine one day i really could not see you my heart would just die. I'm really doubtful of me into you. Could it a second tat i thought tat you are just being nice or you have really moved my heart. So wad of i really fall in love with you. You are just perfectly not for me. I knew thr wont ever be a me in ur life ever yet i'm so stubbon just to wait for a miracle to happen. Maybe i think too much. Or maybe i should'nt even think...

the me which is not me

2010-08-18T23:28:00.005+08:00

sometimes i wonder if i could just end this all...if i could just say wadever feelings i have...but why does it so hard?...

the irritating part is i just cant control how i feel...i dont want to know you! i dont want to see you! i dont want to hear you!...

this is wad i say but i just dont mean it...i think of you everyday...i cant believe how fcking stupid i can be...
time after time...i just cant let go of this stupid feelings....you are just you...yet i'm just not me...

we are two complete different world of ppl...if i could just tell you the truth tat i have cried for hundreds of time for you...

would you even believe or care?...every night i could only sit down and think of all the things tat could happen in future...

there would not be you, family, or even shelter...just a me walking like a beggar on the streets...

wonder

2010-07-29T23:28:00.002+08:00

I wonder wad would happen to me in future...I wonder if i would be still living in this world..

You

2010-07-11T23:33:00.003+08:00

If i could tell you i love you...i would choose not to...not because i'm afraid you wont accept me...is i know it would be the end between us...sometimes some words are better left unspoken but in the end you would blame yourself for not speaking...life can be so simple yet so tough because life is not simple yet not that tough...no one can hurt you...it is actually just you hurting yourself with your own thinking...

wait

2010-07-04T19:02:00.002+08:00

I can only wait till the day when i have to leave...will you miss me? will you even know tat the only one i cant bear to leave is you? i haven let you know how much i love you...maybe leaving is the only choice...i should have let go of you long ago...but my heart just would'nt follow.......

School!

2010-06-25T23:40:00.002+08:00

Great...ZZzzzzz school's gonna reopen in about less than 2 days...time really flys...haiis...wonder if everythings gonna become worse or even worse when go back school...study plus work...wow...haiis...must really stop being so slackish liao...STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!!

It just hurts to live

2010-05-16T20:10:00.002+08:00

~Sometimes it’s better to be alone.
Nobody can hurt you that way~

~Sometimes I cry just to hear you tell me it’ll all be okay~

~Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option~

~I’m not crying over what you said;
It’s what you didn’t say that hurts the most~

~Some nights i feel shattered inside, but i won't admit it. I know it hurts like hell but have to endure it. For the sake of the people around me,let pain consume me inside~

~Never look at the past because it will only slow down the future~

~Everone wants to be happy no one wants to be in pain but theres no rainbow with out any rain~

~When you lose someone... you end up losing part of yourself~

~I see you, but i cant kiss you;
i walk with you, but i cant hold you;
i hug you, but just to say goodbye;
but what i hate the most is that,
you'll never be mine~

~The sad truth is there are no happy endings~

~You're my friend and there's nothing more to it and yet I feel like you're the only special thing that matters to me and I can't risk losing you. Why did I have to fall in love with you?~

~With all these lies, it leads to endless cries, and ends up with sad goodbyes~

~The shortest word I know is "I".
the sweetest word I know is "love",
and the one I'll never forget is "you"~

~I realise that life sucks the most when you are depressed but every morning has to be an attempt of new begginings~

~Death leaves a heartache no one can heal. Love leaves a memory no one can steal~

~Watch the waves sweep the sand away & you'll understand the power of letting go~

~I don't miss you, I miss who I thought you was~

fake life

2010-05-14T19:39:00.002+08:00

"Pain is deeper than all thought; laughter is higher than all pain"

~ Why love if losing hurts so much? I have no answers anymore; only the life I have lived. The pain now is part of the happiness then. ~

~Remember, there are no mistakes, only lessons. Love yourself, trust your choices, and everything is possible. ~

~ The price of hating other human beings is loving oneself less. ~

~ If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is part of yourself. What isn't part of ourselves doesn't disturb us. ~

~ We do not remember days; we remember moments. ~

~ Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad. ~

~I didn’t want to admit it
it was easier to lie
to hide the hurt and emptiness
to smile instead of cry
I didn’t want to face the fact
my life is full of pain
as I long to stop my bleeding heart
and smile once again
I didn’t want to face the fact
I cannot spread my wings
for my happiness has melted into tears and other things~

My life

2010-05-14T00:02:00.000+08:00

I'm a puppet

Exams!!!!!

2010-05-10T21:43:00.002+08:00

Exam exam exam! stress! stress! stress! haiis! haiis! haiis! JIA YOU EVERY STUDENT!!!

Disappear

2010-04-04T20:07:00.000+08:00

My life will completely take a turn after june.
Singapore will forever be a memory to me.

anime

2010-03-16T01:27:00.000+08:00

Life?

2010-03-14T20:21:00.002+08:00

No matter how hard I have tried to seek out help,

the pain is still there sharper has it was before.

Being with a crowd of people or with ur best friend

you still stand in darkness and feel totally alone.

When will this end? When will the pain go away?

I can no longer take the pain and feel my life has no impact on anyone,

who will miss someone who is nothing to anyone?

Life? Life has no meaning to me anymore cause

what life am I living in is just total darkness and pain.

dont ask why

2010-03-12T22:12:00.001+08:00

STAY AWAY FROM ME YOU PPL AMD HUMANS!

GET LOST!

DONT TAG ME ANYMORE!

LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!

I think of you

2010-03-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

I miss you, It’s hard not to see you.
I love you , for a very long time

I need you to take this pain away that i’m inhaling.
hard to breathe , knowing you are there without me
I think of you …

your voice is in my mind .
your personality that I fell for , your laugh that brighten’s my day
words that you said , that I couldn’t explain
you Just said them right.

Lost

2010-03-06T23:16:00.002+08:00

The darkness surrounds me
It's getting so cold
I'm all alone
With no one to hold.

My world is so empty
All what's left is pain
No sunshine to light my way
Just never ending rain.

I drown in tears
My heart is crying
No one seems to notice
My soul is dying.

The hardest thing I'll ever do

2010-03-06T23:11:00.003+08:00

The hardest thing I'll ever do
is let go of you.
And look forward instead of back to my past

I wonder how long this broken heart will last
I guess everything you ever said was a lie
So I'm going to move forward or at least I'm going to try

how many times can a heart crack before it shatters
or does it even matter?
I've sat and cried over you way to much

just wishing one more time I could feel your presence
But you don't care and neither should I
so I'm going to move on or at least I'm going to try.

Mask!

2010-03-05T23:53:00.000+08:00

I was once sad and lonely,
Having nobody to comfort me,
So I wore a mask that always smiled;
To hide my feelings behind a lie.

Before long, I had many friends;
With my mask, I was one of them.
But deep inside, I still felt empty,
Like I was missing a part of me.

Nobody could hear my cries at night
For I designed my mask to hide the lies.
Nobody could see the pain I was feeling
For I designed my mask to be laughing.

Behind all the smiles were the tears
And behind all the comfort were the fears.
Everything you think you see,
Wasn't everything there was to me.

Day by day,
I was slowly dying.
I couldn't go on,
There was something missing..

Until now I'm still searching
For the thing that'll stop my crying.
For someone who'll erase my fears,
For the person who'll wipe my tears.

But till then I'll keep on smiling.
Hiding behind this mask I'm wearing.
Hoping one day I can smile,
Till then, I'll be here.. waiting.

Unexpressed Feelings

2010-03-05T23:51:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, I often wonder why something shouts as loud as thunder
It was there inside of me, hiding for a reason
Sometimes, I looked at the sky and hurtle a cry
Maybe because of hurt but still, I'm wondering why.

As I waked up in the morning, the light blinds me from darkness
my heart is filled with such sadness
I am an ordinary person with a broken heart and shame everywhere
I can't believe this pain inside and shame elsewhere.

These unexpressed feelings of mine will never let me be fine
I hope tomorrow as I looked up the sky,
all my doubts, pain and hurt will die
Tears should not fall from this eyes again and again...

How could i be so lonely?

2010-03-05T23:47:00.001+08:00

How could I be so lost,
In a place I know so well?

How could I be so broken,
In a family so together?

How could I be so lonely,
Surrounded by so many?

How could I be so unhappy,
Surrounded by so much beauty?

How could I be me,
When even I remain a mystery?

My World

2010-03-05T23:35:00.002+08:00

Love. Is that what I crave?
If it is, then why can't I find it?

Hate. Does that mean anger?
If it does, then why do I feel hollow?

Pain. Does that mean suffering?
If it does, then why does it feel comforting?

Memories. Are they not images of the past?
If they are, why is there only shadows?

Smiles. Does that mean happiness?
If it does, then why does it hurt?

Life. What does it mean?
Should it mean any of these things?
If it doesn't, then why are they there?

why you?(i dont know)

2010-02-27T23:11:00.000+08:00

暗恋‘你’第260天，

最后我们终将擦身而过，

留下回忆忘了彼此，

爱给我的伤痛，

要如何忍耐下去？，

即使每日活在痛苦的思念中，

爱上你是我至死不悔的决定，

即使不能和你在一起，

但这不是离别吧！，

因为你走的路是为了再相聚而离开的路，

想念的时候想得要发狂的时候，

旁边若无人的话，

哭就行了，

别忘了你别忘了，

我一直在你身边，

我会永远等你，

即使你已忘了我，

因为爱因为我更爱你，

你的泪你的孤独我全都带走，

别伤心了你别伤心了，

即使世事让你悲痛，

我爱你。。。

你听见了吗？

stupid me

2010-02-26T00:24:00.005+08:00

暗恋‘你’第258天，

风雨过后不一定有美好的天空，

不是天晴就会有彩虹，

所以你一脸无辜不代表你懵懂，

不是所有感情都会有始有终，

孤独尽头不一定惶恐，

可生命总免不了最初的一阵痛，

但愿你的眼睛只看得到笑容，

但愿你流下每一滴泪都让人感动，

但愿你以后每一个梦不会一场空，

天上人间如果真值得歌颂，

也是因为有你才会变得闹哄哄，

天大地大世界比你想像中朦胧，

我不忍心再欺哄但愿你听得懂，

就算每天人来人往是那么吵闹，

除了你我全都听不到，

我的心去了哪里？，

想请你帮我找，

分给我好不好小小的世界少了你我快要疯掉，

除了你我谁都不想要。

HAPPY

2010-02-14T20:39:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AND VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!

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2010-02-07T22:11:00.002+08:00

~~THE EMPTYNESS WITHIN~~

Dad

2010-01-16T00:42:00.002+08:00

Finally had a heart-to-heart sms with my dad...
Sorry and thanks dad...
I appreciate everything you do...

痛

2010-01-12T00:37:00.004+08:00

暗恋“你”第224天。
晴。

没别的，只想说对不起。对不起，我真的爱你。不管你会怎么想，你怎么说，也不会

改变我的决定。

你知道有时候感情事，很难说。很难说，爱人或朋友。

从前到现在我真的感觉要，一想你，我的心就发烧。

想给你听，我的心跳。想你知道，我睡的不好。喝水想着你，搭车想着你。合眼闭眼

间，出现的全是你。

我猜不到你的表情，我等不到你的回应。不想难为你，又不想放弃你。

没别的，只想说对不起。怎么样，我都会珍惜。你的心情也跟着

影响我着我的心情。

现在到永远我真会感觉要，一想你，我的心就狂跳。

读书想着你，听歌想着你。大地和蓝

天，出现的全是你。

不想难为你，又不想放弃你。

你听一听，我的心跳。你看一看，我睡的不好。

喝水想着你，搭车想着你。合眼闭眼间，出现的全是你。

我猜不到你的表情，我等不到你的回应。不想难为你，又不想放弃你。

只想告诉你：对不起！对不起！我爱你……

Rainbow

2010-01-09T01:16:00.002+08:00

(Very short but quite cool anyway)

(Saw this when playing basketball)

(First time see real rainbow)

(Last two photo not bad rite?)
(Thx to the pro photographer--->me!)

Happy 2010!

2010-01-01T19:52:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

This year's last day was the best day of all 365 days...

Thanks w,k,j!

Take Me To Your Heart

2009-12-30T00:09:00.001+08:00

Take Me To Your Heart
Michael Learns To Rock

Hiding from the rain and snow
Trying to forget
But I won’t let go
Looking at a crowded street
Listening to my own heart beat
So many people
All around the world
Tell me where do I find
Someone like you girl
Take me to your heart
Take me to your soul
Give me your a hand
Before I’m old
Show me what love is
Haven’t got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true
They say nothing lasts forever
We’re only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away
Take me to your heart
Take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is
Be my guiding star
It’s easy
Take me to your heart
Standing on a mountain high
Looking at the moon
Through a clear blue sky
I should go and see some friends
But they don’t really comprehend
Don’t need too much talking
Without saying anything
All I need is someone
Who makes me wanna sing
Take me to your heart
Take me to your soul
Give me your hand
Before I’m old
Show me what love is
Haven’t got a clue
Show me that wonders
Can be true
They say nothing lasts forever
We’re only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away
Take me to your heart
Take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is
Be my guiding star
It’s easy
Take me to your heart
Take me to your heart
Take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is
Be my guiding star
It’s easy take me to your heart

ION orchard

2009-12-27T20:00:00.001+08:00

(The udon thing i order...look nice rite?
NO!! It tastes damn sour! This how it look like at first)

(How it look like after i ate...*din finish*

Look like lump of thing scramble together)

---->Tonkichi

(look like vomit)

sprite float

behind is ice coffee

Went to ION orchard with dad and bro after visiting grandma at pasi ris...Went to bro work place to makan ----> Tonkichi...food thr was damn ex! spend total of $84 plus...should have been more but the boss gave 20% discount cos staff family...Zzzz

LONG LONG LONG way back home so slept in the car...

Then went buy sport shoes and school bag at royal sport house.

陈伟联 - 永远的朋友

2009-12-21T00:52:00.014+08:00

如果你很忙
我到街上去晃一晃
身为一个朋友
有些事情不该勉强
看你黑着眼圈
今晚很长我睡不着
到底是谁害你这么想
因为太爱你
拼命达到你的需要
虽然只是朋友
总比什么都不是好
借你肩膀依靠
借你关心也借你微笑
我很想给你却不要
爱着你却伤心的只能守候不能拥有
真挚的做一个永远的朋友
看着你旧旧的简讯内容
我看见爱情向我大声嘲弄
爱着你却大方的陪你恋爱替你加油
虚弱的做一个永远的朋友
几次累的想断绝联络
却听见你说情人比不上朋友
我总是有让你想出声的方法
我却没有让自己离开的力量
也许友情才能地久天长
我只是朋友...

Be with me

2009-12-18T04:52:00.004+08:00

人的痛苦

2009-12-16T20:01:00.002+08:00

如果要选择的话，你愿意让你身边的人开心还是不让自己痛苦？
如果是我的话，我宁愿自己痛苦也不要让身边的人不开心。
隐藏真正的自己换来别人的开心值得吗？
可是为什么到最后自己的痛苦原来是来自身边的人。
现在是自己还是别人？

暗恋的寂寞

2009-12-13T15:45:00.006+08:00

暗恋‘你’第192天，
晴。

以为能把‘你’当成朋友，不在乎‘你’。可是真的好难好难把‘你’忘掉。脑

海里一直闪着‘你’的画面。每次跟‘你’相处的时候，自己就会告诉自己，如

果不要让自己越限越深的话，一定不能和‘你’有任何美好的时光。愚蠢的自己

什么时候在能醒悟呢？不管有多痛自己也得忍。因为爱‘你’所以要坚持放弃

‘你’。因为爱‘你’所以不能爱‘你’。

痛

2009-12-11T04:08:00.005+08:00

一个苦者找到一个和尚倾诉他的心事。

他说：“我放不下一些事，放不下一些人。”

和尚说：“没有什么东西是放不下的。” 　

他说：“这些事和人我就偏偏放不下。”

和尚让他拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢出来。

被烫到马上松开了手。

和尚说：“这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。”

以前、发了疯旳想.

如今、拼了命旳忘.

现在的我一无所有，只有一颗外表看去还算坚强的心，其实内心已是千疮百孔。

世上没有药可以医治我这颗破碎的心，俗话说，心病还要心药医。

爱过一个人，却为爱伤了神，爱的越真伤的越深，孤单的背后，我看不清自我，

却不舍得你难过，我的爱着了魔，心被你上了锁，却眼睁睁的看着你和他走过，

我看透了你的人，却看透不了你的心。

树的孤独有风知道；左手的想法右手明了；对你的思念不是摇摇头就能就能甩掉。

该给的我都给了,我都舍得,除了让你知道我心如刀割。

纵然伤心，也不要愁眉不展，因为你不知是谁会爱上你的笑容。

如果再回到从前，我宁愿选择不认识你，不是我后悔，而是我不能面对没有你的结局。

你以为最酸的感觉是吃醋吗？不是的，最酸溜溜的感觉是没权吃醋，根本就轮不到你吃醋，那就是最酸最酸的。

我没哭,可是眼泪流下来了。

Miss somebody I lost.Forget somebody I miss...

我故意学习，故意工作，故意生活，故意活得像个人！

眼泪的存在，是为了证明悲伤不是一场幻觉。

照片

2009-12-10T14:52:00.007+08:00

Let go

2009-12-09T05:14:00.006+08:00

Sometime letting go is the only way not to get hurt...

Live the life you want to live.

Be the person you want to remember.

Make decisions,

Make mistakes.

If you fail,

At least you tried.

Life is about trusting our feelings

and taking chances,

losing and finding happiness,

appreciating the memoreies

and learning from the past.

When i think about everything wrong,

i remember how amazing life truly is

and the fact that

i like being imperfect.

Dream as if you'll live forever.

Live as if you'll die tomorrow.

Things change,

friends leave

but life does'nt stop for anybody.

There are two greatest day in a person life.

The day we are born and the day we discover why.

There is a thin line between

knowing when to give up and

when to try harder.

At the center of your being,

you have the answer,

you know who you are

and wad you want.

What lies behind us

and before us are small matters

compared to wad lies within us.

Life is'nt about the number of breaths you take,

it's about the moments that take your breath away.

Pics

2009-12-07T13:43:00.005+08:00

为什么？

2009-11-30T17:41:00.007+08:00

我总是意犹未尽地想起你，

这是最残酷也最温柔的囚禁吗？

我就像现在一样看着你微笑,沉默,得意,失落,

于是我跟着你开心也跟着你难过,只是
我一直站在现在而你却永远停留过去.

我站得太久说的太久了我自己都累了，

你怎么还是听不懂？我写的太多了写得太
久了我自己都累了，你怎么还是看不懂？

曾经一直想让别人知道自己的心情，

那些沉重，那些无法讲述的悲伤和苍凉。可
是，我要如何在浅薄的纸上为你画出我所有的命轮？

我要如何让你明白？

当你真正爱一样东西的时候你就会

发现语言多么的脆弱和无力。

再好的东西都有失去的一天。

再深的记忆也有淡忘的一天。

再爱的人，也有远走
的一天。再美的梦也有苏醒的一天。

该放弃的决不挽留。

意义何在？

2009-11-30T17:24:00.004+08:00

很多我们以为一辈子都不会忘记的事情，就在我们念念不忘的日子里，被我们遗忘了。

你笑一次，我就可以高兴好几天；可看你哭一次，我就难过了好几年。

如果可以和你在一起，我宁愿让天空所有的星光全部损落，因为你的眼睛，是我生命里最亮的光芒。

寂寞的人总是记住生命中出现的每一个人，正如我总是意犹未尽地想起你！

曾经也有一个笑容出现在我的生命里，可是最后还是如雾般消散，而那个笑容，就成为我心中深深埋藏的一条湍急河流，无法泅渡，那河流的声音，就成为我每日每夜绝望的歌唱。

我没有奢望，我只想你快乐，没有哀伤。

黑夜给了我黑色的眼睛,它却让我爱上黑夜给我的疼痛。

总有一天我会从你身边默默地走开,不带任何声响.我错过了很多,我总是一个人难过.

Food Disaster

2009-11-28T01:38:00.002+08:00

Woke up 2.30pm+...

Ate breakfast(so called-.-)...

When to visit grandma at pasir ris at 6pm...

Play stupid games with cousins(reallyy very idiotic)...

Ate dinner dinner at aunt house...(irritating bro put all the prawns into my bowl...bro and me hate eating rubber--->abalone...)

Dad and stepmum hungry so went to eat at bedok...ppl moutain ppl sea...so damn many ppl eating thr so need wait...

Dad order chicken wing,noodle,otah...

Bro train me to take spicy food(Failed)

The so called super nice noodle introduce by my dad turn out to be the worst food i have eaten...

The only nice thing in the bowl of noodle is the meatball...

In the end our whole family din eat finish...

Sent bro back to his house then wentt home..

~The End~

WHY?!!?

2009-11-15T22:38:00.003+08:00

" I can't talk to you anymore,

it's not that I am mad at you,

it's just that when I

talk to you I realize how much I love you

and when I realize how much I love

you, I realize I can't have you and

that makes me love you even more."

" Nothing hurts more than realizing

you meant everything to me,

but I meant nothing to you."

" Sometimes you think you've gotten over a person,

but when you see that person smile,

you suddenly realize you're just pretending

you're over that person to ease t

he pain of knowing that

the person will never be yours."

" Sometimes the person you really need

is the one you didn't think you wanted."

" I'm scared of everything,

I'm scared of who I am,

what I saw, what I did,

but most of all I am scared

of walking out of this room and

never feeling for the rest of my life,

the way I feel when I'm with you."

" Moving on is simple,

it's what you leave behind

that makes it so difficult."

" I’m going to smile and make

you think I’m happy,

I’m going to laugh,

so you don’t see me cry,

I’m going to let you go in style,

and even if it kills me

- I’m going to smile."

" I just realized,

it's so lonely being free."

" Love unreturned is like a

question without an answer."

" You know you love someone

when you want them to be happy

even if their happiness means

that you're not part of it."

" How do I say goodbye to

someone I never really had?

Why do my tears fall so endlessly

for someone who was never really mine?

Why is it I miss someone

I was never really with?

And why do I love someone

whose love was never really mine?"

Endless hole

2009-11-15T22:37:00.000+08:00

love

2009-10-30T20:33:00.002+08:00

When we are in love we often doubt that

which we most believe.

There is a voice inside which speaks and says:

''This is the real me!''

In true love the smallest distance is too great,

and the greatest distance can be bridged.

A heart is not judged by how much you love,

but by how much you are loved, by others.

Acceptance. It is the true thing everyone longs for.

The one thing everyone craves.

To walk in a room and to be greeted by everyone

with hugs and smiles.

And in that small passing moment,

you truly know you're loved,

needed, and accepted.

We really have to understand the person we want to love.

If our love is only a will to possess,

it is not love. If we only think of ourselves,

if we know only our own needs

and ignore the needs of the other person,

we cannot love.

It is possible to love your friends,

your competitors,

and even your enemies.

It is hard, bitterly hard,

but there is a long distance

between hard and impossible.

Some people never say the words 'I love you'

It's not their style to be so bold.

Some people never say those words:

'I love you' But, like a child,

they're longing to be told.

When you frown everyone looks down,

but when you smile the whole world smiles with you.

give

2009-10-29T21:50:00.003+08:00

You can give without loving,

but you cannot love without giving.

The best things in life are never rationed.

Friendship, loyalty, love do not require coupons.

The heart has reasons that reason does not understand.

"Love is a thing what we can not see but can realize"

Love is an emotion experienced by the many

and enjoyed by the few.

Love is not to be purchased,

and affection has no price.

Love is the emblem of eternity:

it confounds all notion of time:

effaces all memory of a beginning,

All fear of an end.

These two truths are the same in weight and importance.

Accept and love WHO and WHERE you are now,

and all good things shall find you there.

To fall in love is easy, even to remain in it is not difficult;

our human loneliness is cause enough.

But it is a hard quest worth making to find a

comrade through whose steady presence one

becomes steadily the person one desires to be.

You learn to speak by speaking,

to study by studying,

to run by running,

to work by working; and just so,

you learn to love by loving.

All those who think to learn in any

other way deceive themselves.

To be your friend was all I ever wanted;

to be your lover was all I ever dreamed.

Self-love is often rather arrogant than blind;

it does not hide our faults from ourselves,

but persuades us that they escape the notice of others.

People love others not for who they are,

but for how they make them feel.

Close friends love you for who you are,

not what they want you to be.

Friends

2009-10-28T16:04:00.004+08:00

A mere friend will agree with you

but a real friend will argue.

You May Be One Person To The World

But You May Be The World To One Person.

To your enemy, forgiveness.

To an opponent, tolerance.

To a friend, your heart.

To a customer, service.

To all, charity.

To every child, a good example.

To yourself, respect.

Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art...

It has no survival value;

rather it is one of those things that give value to survival.

If you love something, let it go.

If it comes back to you, its yours forever.

If it does'nt, then it was never meant to be.

I self destruct every relationship

so that i don't get hurt...

but in truth i just hurt myself

worse in the long run..

Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away; and all the things I want

to say can find no voice.

Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart.

Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye.

A good-bye is never painful

unless you're never going

to say hello again .

Your heart says stay and battle the pain,

but your mind says leave for all this isnt needed,

broken into pieces for that one an only.

But follow your heart because the heart can only take so much.

Pain is such an uncomfortable feeling that even a tiny amount of it is

enough to ruin every enjoyment.

The pain of the heart is worse

than the pain of the

body.

It is a time when one's spirit is subdued and sad, one knows not why;

when the past seems a storm-swept desolation,

life a vanity and a burden,

and the future but a way to death.

emo

2009-10-24T10:56:00.002+08:00

When something's over,

it's over.

it can never start again.

When it's broken

you can never

put back the pieces.

Life is not the way

you want it to be.

Sometimes

all you can do is smile

Move on with your day,

Hold back the tears and

pretend you're okay.

Whats the sense of

wishing for something

when I always

just wish it away?

We're born alone,

we live alone,

we die alone.

Only through our love

and friendship can

we create the illusion

for the moment that

we're not alone.

When everyone leaves you

it’s loneliness you feel,

when you leave everyone else

it’s solitude.

Scars

2009-10-23T22:00:00.004+08:00

Not all scars show,

not all wounds heal

Sometimes you can't always see

The pain someone feels.

What's better?

A lie that draws a smile

or the truth that draws a tear?

I'm fighting with myself

Trying to get you out of my head

But I'm hanging on

every word you said.

Forgiving isn't Forgetting.

Its just letting go of the hurt.

so forgive more.

Tired of trying,

Sick of crying,

Yeah I'm smiling,

but inside I'm dying.

There's a smile on my face

but I don't know why its there

I put it on to satisfy all the people

that don't even care.

I've found out why people laugh.

They laugh because it hurts...

because it's the only thing

that'll make it stop hurting.

Photoz

2009-10-15T11:30:00.008+08:00

video

2009-09-27T14:50:00.002+08:00

Meowwwww!...

why?

2009-09-26T13:29:00.003+08:00

Updated!

dad

2009-07-19T19:37:00.001+08:00

Went playing basketball in the afternoon...

thought can play in the rain but suddenly stop...

Zzzz-.-....

Then play half way dad sms ask to come home...

then went home soooo early....

Zzzzzzzzzzzz.....

weird

2009-07-18T20:42:00.001+08:00

Today went play basketball in the afternoon then

went home

.........full stops...........

rain

2009-07-11T23:17:00.004+08:00

Wooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today went first went to

cornerstone church

ROCK ROCK ROCK........

Then went play basketball....

half way raining....

then see rain dont know why so excited...

then ran into the rain PLAY PLAY PLAY....

SUPER FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then went 7-11 to buy cup noodle to eat

which was super damn COLD!

cousin

2009-07-05T00:05:00.003+08:00

Today went play basketball with cousin and friends..then kana hit

on my right eye and my finger almost broke...play till 10++pm then

went eat with cousin...then went home pain everywhr...

blood

2009-06-24T22:12:00.000+08:00

Went to play basketball as usual...

play till leg got blood...

dont care...

continued playing...

then fall down...

butt pain,head pain,leg pain,hand pain...

stop awhile then went to play again...

Zzzz...

Crazy day...

tired

2009-06-23T22:20:00.003+08:00

Zzzzzzzzz.......TIRED!....woke up at 3+...

went to play basketball at 4+...

played full court today which was so damn tiring...run thr run

here...Zzzzzz...then reach home 9+...

trying

2009-06-17T23:56:00.004+08:00

Today YY and tris came my house.....before tris came....veryy boring so

played cards but i think even more boring....then went out to play

basketball till 9+ then went home...zzzzzzzzz.....

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2009-06-14T21:55:00.002+08:00

Today woke up at 3.30pm then went to play basketball at 7+...after that

went to popular to buy things...ZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.........

BORING DAY!!

same old day

2009-06-10T22:21:00.004+08:00

Went to meet Jian Wei and other two ppl at bedok library...i dont even

know go thr for WAD!...din even touch until the project...Zzzzzzz....dont

say liao..make my blood pressure go so high...(blood pressure high i

will suck human blood to calm myself

down...hahahahahahahahah(lame-.-lll)...)...then went back to

tampines to play

basketball and soccer with tris...play play play...then half way tris went

back home...(pang seh me with three guys playing basketball)...then

play till 10pm like then went home...

fort canning

2009-06-06T21:09:00.002+08:00

Idiotic pics that i take during fort canning.....

cat

2009-06-06T21:07:00.004+08:00

CAT!!!!

tired

2009-06-06T20:33:00.002+08:00

Today went play basketball...now so tireddd......feel my bones breaking

apart....Zzzzz...Xin chi called me to ask me go vivo city which was like

sooooo far...she ask me go watch movie with her but i cant cause playing

basketball...then at the park...waited for tris to come...saw tris dad and

her cousin flying kite(real kite)...then went to join in...i was like so peng

cheng with the kite cause it keep on falling to the ground somemore

cause not windy...then saw the ice pop ink which i made

yesterday(which was so damn ugly)...then

joelle say i vandelise the ground(so not true)....

sleep

2009-06-05T14:17:00.003+08:00

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..............SIANZZZZZ............so much holiday

hw!!!!~~~....yesterday went escape

theme park with little princess and some other pri school ppl....had

quite alot of fun...then in the

end gotten so bored of those games....haunted house was like so

fake....the ghosts looks like

made from plastic....which was like so not scary....look so lame...then

play the car...the queue

was soooo long...waited waited waited....finally our turn~~!!!...then had

fun...but very fast

finish....zzzz..i was the last....then went home without telling little

princess and others cause they

having fun...take bus then mrt to tampines and went to play basketball..

Today going to play basketball again...

bb

2009-05-29T20:34:00.003+08:00

WOOOOOO!!!!!...Finally school holiday....but so much

hw...errrr!!!....Went to play basketball with tris and ah min in the

afternoon....but in the end dont know why end up playing soccer...so play

play play then 7.30+ went home..now sooooooo tired......

hais

2009-05-26T19:09:00.002+08:00

<<FRIENDSHIP SUCKSSSSS!!!!!>>

MMV : Emo Kid

2009-05-23T22:57:00.001+08:00

[[MMV]] Lean Like An Emo

2009-05-23T22:55:00.000+08:00

Maple Idol... O.o

2009-05-23T22:47:00.000+08:00

RK house No PORK!! - Maple Story version

2009-05-23T22:35:00.001+08:00

(Malay ppl dont see this you are allergic to pok words...hahaha)

U.G.L.Y on MapleStory

2009-05-23T22:32:00.000+08:00

(Song is fast...So must catch up wad it says..)

National Service Song

2009-05-23T22:25:00.000+08:00

(This song is pretty nice)

if i have 1 million

2009-05-23T22:16:00.001+08:00

(If you really have one million dollars PLS DONT SING THIS SONG!!!YOU WILL GO BANKRUPT!!!!)

Newspaper prank call maple ver.

2009-05-23T22:07:00.001+08:00

(If your neighbour call you "DONT PICK UP THE DAMN PHONE!!!!!!!!!")

Prank Calls.

2009-05-23T22:06:00.000+08:00

(LAME!!!)

Singlish chat from 98.7FM Animation

2009-05-23T21:59:00.000+08:00

(MUST WATCH!!!!DAMN FUNNY!!!)

Muttons to Midnight(Bannedstory Version)

2009-05-23T21:52:00.000+08:00

badminton..

2009-05-20T20:22:00.004+08:00

ZzzzzzZzzzzz.........had badminton training todayy....so damn tiredd

now....can

feel my bones breaking apart....after badminton training....

went to blk 162 thr

play badminton with ah min and ah chen...then went backk home....

hmmm....if

i have a choice...i really would like to invent something that can break human

bodys apart then wash the body parts and can put back all together again...

(crazyy liao..=.=''')

victoria

2009-05-13T19:35:00.004+08:00

Today woke up 11+...broke my record of getting up so early...

went to pick YYY up from school....thank her so much for getting me almost cook under the hot sun....(waited for her for 1hr!!!)...

after that decided to go victoria's house aka 小公主's house as its very near the school...then went to find the blk number...found liao when up to 5th floor...dont know wad is the door number...

went around to look for her...finally found her...then YYY dont wan go in her house...so i went in...小公主 was like playing piano all the way...then i hear till wan sleep liao....

after that her mum ask her to go buy something...so YYY and me followed her to the mini mart...(first time)....went back to her house...YYY finally go in to the house....stayed for about 2hrs then YYY went home...(sorry ar...din send you home...)...i stayed behind....

小公主 continued to play the piano....hear until almost fell asleep...but evetually she played kelvin kern's songs which were like my favourite piano songs....then ah min sms...ask me to go to blk 162 thr to play basketball..then keep on smsing him back that i will be thr soon...(he sms me 2.30pm+)...

then went down to mini mart with 小公主 to buy something again...(second time)....went back to house liao...小公主 still wan play piano...i was like urhhhhhh......then help 小公主 to wrap a prensent which was for amanda lau's sister amelia...went up to amanda's house which was 4 floors up 小公主's house on the same blk...

reach liao amanda was like keep on saying OMG OMG OMG...(have no idea why but think it might be me)...then 小公主's mum told her to go buy something again...then went to hawker center to buy food....(third time go downstairs)....the time was 6.30+ liao...

then decide to go...say bye bye to 小公主 then rush back to blk 162...(I WAS LIKE SO LATE)...took bus...run like hell to blk 162...by the time reach liao everyone was gone except ah min and ah chen ...

longgggggggggg dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!

伤

2009-05-13T14:00:00.000+08:00

为了不伤害到自己而慢慢形成的一种方法就是-----

虽然心灵一点点地被伤痛吞没，但表面上却能报以一丝微笑，

虽然会心情不好，但仍能够维持良好的人际关系。

我对自己以往的言行感到十分后悔，

曾问过自己“我到底是什么”，

但一段时间过去后，

尽管感觉心情还有点郁闷，我懂得了如何面带笑容，

虽然还是会伤心，但是已经能够和他人维系起良好的关系，

与其用过于残酷的现实去伤害别人，

我逐渐觉得用这一种方法更合适。

人

2009-05-12T14:24:00.004+08:00

人有时候会被某个人高的精疲力尽，几乎到了无法承受的程度，

也有时候会如饥似渴地思念某个人，

在人与人的关系中，学会如何保持彼此之间适当的距离

是一门很重要的课程，

也就是说，这个世界上还有很多需要我们学习的东西。

幸福

2009-05-12T14:16:00.001+08:00

为了获得幸福，所有的人都在不解的努力着，忙碌着。

幸福到底是什么？？

幸福似乎就是一种结果，

不管得到它的过程有多艰难，只要最终能够得到它。。。。。。

但如今它变得让人感到厌倦了，

因为我们不是为了明天，更不是为了后天，

只要现在，只要眼前能够感到幸福就足够了。

爱

2009-05-12T13:38:00.009+08:00

只要一想到你就在离我不遥远的地方，

我就会感到前所未有的满足。

我总是无时无刻思念着你，同时也在这种思念之中呵护着你，

我从来不曾怀疑过你永远都会在我身边，而我也从未

停止想念着你。

我希望你不要问我喜欢上你的理由，

不过我只想告诉你一句话：爱上你是一件没有任何理由的事。

Nice Song!

2009-04-11T22:15:00.001+08:00

Life

2009-04-11T22:04:00.006+08:00

Life is really weird....things can happened out of no whr.....you dont

know

if good or bad things will happened....life is so unexpected....you really

nid

alot of strength within your heart to be able to take wad will happened

next...you just have to take wadever challenges god give you to do....the

way that you think to solve your problem will affect the way you look the

world as....

2009-04-09T18:31:00.001+08:00

ZZZZzzzzzZZZZZZZzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

2009-03-21T15:15:00.006+08:00

THE WORD "HAPPY"

IS NOT IN MY DICTIONARY

2009-03-20T00:52:00.003+08:00

Sianzzzz...............Now in woodlands....nothing to do everyday other then watch tv and playing computer................................cannot go swimming somemore......wan go play tennise but no tennis racket.......................................................wan to play badmintin also din bring badminton racket............zzzzzZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzZZZZZZzzzzzZZZ

Sunday going back to grandma place........................................

hell

2009-03-17T18:20:00.003+08:00

HELL OF BOREDNESS

(No one is allow to access)

(ERRRRRRRRRRRRR)

(ROT...ROT...ROT...)

(MELTING!!!.......)

(HELP!!!!!........)

(PLS!!!!!!!....)

(SIANZZ!)

(HAIZ..)

(T.T)

V

..

2009-03-13T16:31:00.002+08:00

Haizzz....really should put my blog as private.....got scolded by both C's wife for talking about my daily life things....Somemore say i am that person's wife...wad rubbish is this???!!!Is they like or love that person then still say me...really nothing better to do......ZzZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzz

pri

2009-03-06T23:54:00.002+08:00

Today went back to pri school with 3 power puff girls...first went to no.

3 girl then went to my house change....no.2 girl follow along smsing all

the way...(to C)...then went to no.1 girl de school to pick her up...the sun

is burning us to death...no.1 girl damn long then come out,make us

stand outside her school like cooking under the hot(sexy) sun...then

walk walk walk walk walk walk walk to school,qurrelling which way

to go...i also dont know just anyhow point one direction...in the end

no.3 girl got it right...walk half way...went to buy bubble teas..they

pang seh me...waited and waited and waited and waited for the bubble

teas...buy liao...then walk alone by myself to school...(sadss)...in school

alot of damn ppls...went to see alot of teachers...no.1 and no.2 girl keep

on talking about C...(which is damn irritating)(if you two really wan to

talk about C hor,pls talk softer la...talk so loud till every person in the

world can hear your converstation)...then see see see see see talk talk

talk talk talk talk talk scream scream scream scream scream finally

going home...no.2 girl taking no.1's girl father's car...(pang seh me and

no.3 girl)...went up the bus...tired till wan collapse liao but suddenly

remember nid to go play basketball with tristy...so went to blk 162

there...play play play until 8.30pm++ went home alone...(lonely...i'm

mr lonely...i have nobody...oh oh my oh....)

(tired like hell!!!)